Happy Saturday!!!

What is up blog world!  I know I missed yesterday but life has this crazy way of getting in the middle of whatever I want to do!  Actually, I went shopping heh.. As I continue to lose weight I have found that I cannot handle the cold like I used too.. And it is getting COLD here in Kansas. 

The above picture made me smile..  And here is why..

In my backyard is a Japanese something tree..  It has the super pretty purple flowers in the spring and is short...  About twice year this thing needs to be trimmed. This past summer it was decided that we would cut off a problematic branch.  My cousin, his wife, myself were in my back yard with a gator (my style of chainsaw because its almost impossible to lose any digits) and a real chain saw (men like real power tools).   My neighbor came out and started talking and watching, I think he came out to make sure my cousin had help moving the heavy parts.    Branch came down, I grabbed it threw it up on my shoulder and walked it out of the way. Similar to how this chick is moving with the log on her shoulder..   The look of surprise on the face of my cousin, his wife and my neighbor made me chuckle...   And even as I type this I am smiling.. 

I worked out with Jessica yesterday.  Yes my knee is still really swollen and sensitive.  But this is one leg. It is not going to stop me from achieving the goals I have set for myself.  Jessica showed me an awesome muscle relaxing tool. Seriously awesome because I ran out and purchased one last night..
I picked up the Pro-Tec Foam Roller. There are several brands out there. This just happened to be the cheap one at the sporting goods store I stopped at. It came with a diagram that described other moves to relax various muscles.. I plan on having some serious fun with this...  Look it up, I was super shocked at how just a few minutes of rolling on this thing relaxed my leg muscles enough that I was able to complete my circuit with her.   It's not a miracle cure that is for sure!  But it helped me relax the muscles around my knee so that I could do what I needed to do..  Which happened to include jumping jacks  and continual knee movement with very little discomfort. 

I am noticing some serious changes in my body.  I feel.. hmm scratch that I AM a lot stronger and some fitness moves that were super hard are becoming a lot easier.. Do I like them all no. But what I do like is looking in the mirror at the gym and thinking "Hey, I am doing that! No way!"   Incline sit ups have long been a fear of mine. Seriously I feared them, I have no idea why... I did them yesterday, fear is gone.. 

So anyway blog world, I am going to get off here and go do something fun... What I am not sure just yet.. It's nice and chilly outside and the leaves are falling off the trees...  Maybe it's time to get that DSLR out and snap some photos..

Last thought... Am I still scared about my knee and gaining weight? Yes, but I got this.. If this was easy not just physically but emotionally everyone would have a goal to be fit and healthy.   I will run a marathon and put those stickers on my back window..  And I still cannot wait until Nov 2nd..  Have I told you guys I am soo impatient?? 

Ok so maybe... =)

Hello blog world.. I have some sad news, my right knee has decided that running is a bad thing... Seriously I am sad. But to top it off I am also nervous, scared and completely beside myself..   Not about my knee, but because I have a serious fear of gaining weight.  I fear losing control of my weight loss and taking either a step back or a break all together.  I know I am not the only one out there who feels this way... Don't get me wrong I am concerned about my knee. I don't want this to be anything serious. But in all honesty there is a part of me who wants to run regardless of the pain.  Is this dedication or just craziness?   I am dedicated to my body, to making her physically better.  And while I know running on an already damaged knee will only hurt my knee more.. Something in my gray matter says do it.  Because losing weight is way more important then anything else.  Fighting this urge to run only brings out other bad habits.  I am grumpy, stressed, and I have the tendency to grab for the wrong kinds of foods.. Which will only add to my problem if I see the weight on that scale go up. Sadly I like many other people have tied myself worth up in the number I see on the scale.  When the number goes down I feel better about who I am.. If it stays the same or goes up, well lets just say my days are not very happy.  I am my worst critic and I judge myself harshly.   I have allowed people who do not deserve to be apart of my life, either because of their actions or lack there of action to have some place in how I see my self worth.  At times I think to myself I will show them. When I am super fit then they will.. Wrong, if they cannot see it now, I shouldn't give them room in my life to see it later.  My own personal self worth has brought to my attention that they do not deserve to know me or have me in their lives.

I made a promise to myself when I started this I would type not only the good stuff but the not so good stuff and the sometimes painful stuff.  I am doing this because massive changes in anyone's life is scary and along with fear comes self doubt and sometimes self hatred before self awareness even begins to register with that gray matter.  I so want whoever is reading this to know that if you feel the same way you are so not alone.. 

My appointment with an orthopedic surgeon is on Friday Nov 2nd.. But until then I need to respect my body.  It has drawn the line and told me "YOU have reached your limit."  Now I need to be creative..  What to do tomorrow, what to do...

I am popping Aleve fairly regular and honestly my knee feels pretty good right now. I make no promises as to how long I will stay on my cardio equipment of choice. But I am going to try and do a nice 30 minute warm up. 

30 min warm up.. AMT or Elliptical...  It's my knees choice tomorrow.. Which ever one doesn't hurt is going to be the one I play with. 

Lat pull down 15x3

Chest Press on balance ball 20x3

1 min plank

Big Girl Pushups 15x3

Half Crow 20x3 

30 second side plank each side

bicep curls 15x3

tricep extentions on balance ball 15x3

Now this sounds like FUN!

Namaste exjunk food junkies!

Hello my friends!!

Hello followers!!  I have to say this weekend was just awesome.  I had more fun this past weekend then I have in a VERY long time.. It's awesome to have such good friends in my life.   People who see my silliness and love me anyway.    With all of the shenanigans and late nights this weekend I decided to take it easy today and use today as a free day.  A free day to me is a day that I do not go to the gym and workout but instead spend the time doing "other" things.  Today my other things was a trip to Barns and Nobles to grab a book recommended to me. 

Tomorrow however is another story! A friend of mine asked me a few questions about what to do to target some areas that all of us ladies have issues with.. That dang hiney, the thighs and abs.. I thought about it.. And here it goes.. A lower body workout to help get that hiney the lower half of our bodies in strutting shape. =)

I love a good warmup..

30 minutes of cardio of your choice. For myself I am thinking the AMT tomorrow.. Awesome way to get an all over cardio warmup.  Don't forget to PUSH. I know this is a warm up but you should start feeling you're body warm up pretty quickly.



 Lunges 30x3 - some days my legs are good with just my own weight other days. I need more.

Side Plank Dips- 15x3 each side-  For myself these are some of the hardest things I can do in a workout.. My whole body will shake as I get to those last few.. I push through it and they are sooo worth it!

Side Lunges- 30x3- watch those knees and get low,

Burpees!!! 15x3- I have a love hate relationship with burpees.. I hate them when I am doing them but ohh do I LOVE how they make my body feel and look.. AWESOME times 1000. =)

Medicine Ball Rows 15x3 each side- plant your hiney on the floor mat, if you can balance on your hiney with your knees bent and feet off the floor. Using the medicine ball for resistance tuck in your abs and twist from side to side. Kinda like you are on the US Olympic row team.. And not the person yelling.

Dead Lifts- 15x3- pick your weight. If you don't feel a burn add a little more weight.

Balance Ball lifts- 15x3 laying on your back with the balance ball between your ankles. Lift the ball slowly up until your legs and body create a 90 degree angle.

This is what I plan on doing tomorrow..  Anyone else?

Finally Friday!!!!

Yeah, it's FINALLY Friday. I have had a super busy last two weeks and I am going to take this weekend and have some down time with my bestie and her family.. I am super excited!!!

Yesterdays workout was a tread class 50 minutes of cardio activity.. FUN stuff!! No seriously it is fun stuff. I enjoy jogging.  I was able to kick my interval speed up a little heh.. But sadly my knee decided it wasn't enjoying itself as much as I was got a little sore. =(   Aleve to the rescue!   

Improvements:

Over the last week I have noticed I am a lot stronger then a couple of weeks ago..  I am doing "big girl" pushups (no knees) and I have better control of the movement.. Which is just fantastic!  Happy happy happy..  I practice these at home.. I will do pushups with my dogs.. They look at me like I am crazy and the looks they give me make me laugh..

I have also noticed that my lower back muscles are giving me better support.  This seriously helps when doing floor exercises that require me to lay on my back.  Previously with any floor ab workout I would have to either use my hands or a towel to help support my lower back.  Over usage still requires that but I am seeing defiant improvement. 


Weight continues to drop, so all is well in that area too..

Catch up with everyone on Sunday..  Have a great weekend!

Namaste

Wednesdays and Sunday's are my yoga days..  I absolutely LOVE yoga.  It grounds me, and when I am done I feel at peace with myself and connected to the higher power that guides me.

Weight loss bucket list item 891, (there are A LOT of bucket list items.) I want to go to a yoga retreat.   I want to practice yoga while I listen to the ocean crest against the sand and rocks..

It's an exercise that just about anyone can do no matter what your fitness level.  Never be intimated by the the positions, there is always a modification.

Here are some health benefits of yoga listed on  Web MD

1) Improved Flexability
2) Help Improve Posture
3) Help Improve Breathing. - Super important for those of us with Asthma.
4) Less Stress  -This is a stressful world we live in.  Anyone who has walked into an exercise class knows that stressful feeling of can I really  do this? Am I going to finish this class?  The dreaded feeling when the position in the back by the door is already taken.  Because Yoga is not as strenuous as other exercise classes you can leave that stress at the door. But also the focus on breathing and relaxing into the yoga positions tends to lead to a reduction of stress.
5) Improved Mood. -The less stress we feel the more elevated our mood tends to be. But did you also know that improved breathing allows more oxygen to reach the brain which improves things such as depression and along with therapy can help people with OCD?
6) Heart Benefits- Studies have shown that yoga helps with Heart Disease which is the number one killer in the USA.  This is far to cool for me not to quote " Yoga has long been known to lower blood pressure and slow the heart rate. A slower heart rate can benefit people with high blood pressure, heart disease, and stroke. Yoga was a key component to the heart disease program designed by Dean Ornish, MD. This was the first program to partly reverse heart disease through lifestyle and diet rather than surgery"  It can decreased cholesterol and triglyceride levels and boost your  immune system function.

After reading all of that don't you want to run and find a yoga studio??  I know I do! Namaste!!

Busy Day

Wow, today was super busy.  Lots of work at the office, a meeting with a rep and all of that in about a 5 hour span.   Then I had a hair appointment (gotta get that blonde touched up.) Went home scared my poor little guy, back out on the road to pick up my mountain bike, home grabbed some dinner. By the time all of this was done it was 6:30 (I started at 6:00 this morning) and I started to think hmmm.. Do I really want to workout?  Seriously there was a huge part of me that was like blah skip today..  But I put on my gym cloths and sucked it up.  Why?  Because I can honestly say after I start working out I have NEVER regretted starting by the time I got to the end.

Using some recommendations made to me by Jessica .5 mile any cardio (3 to 5 reps) and 50 squats (3 to 5 reps) I came up with this,  now granted I did make some adjustments because of my late start.

Warm Up
4 miles stationary bike, interval resistance between 11 and 18. (No bike path is flat so why should your training be flat. I am unsure what my speed was, I didn't even think of looking. But it was a constant peddle and a constant burn.)

50 squats (all at once. I think next time I am adding some weight.. I was challenged but not as much as I think I should be.)

60 lunges. (ooo I love these things.. I can feel the burn  in my tooshie now!)

120 (60 each side) side lunges (Seriously, I have no idea why it takes me so dang long to get in the side lunge grove but it does.. And I ALWAYS feel silly doing them..)

25x2 Ab twists w/ a 25lb round weight. ( I found this one one of the MANY exercise sites that I frequent.. They are flipping WONDERFUL. I hurt so good right now. =) Stand as if you are going to do a squat. slightly bend your knees placing your weight on your heels. Engaged those abs and take your weight and go from side to side pausing in the middle this is one. I prefer to use the round weights because I can hold them similar to the way I would hold a steering wheel.  Not only does this work your abs but your arms and lower back get a nice workout at the same time.)

25x2 (each side) side ab lifts w/a 25lb round weight.  (Engage those abs let that weight dangle and let your body lean to the side and then pull yourself out of the side lean. Riders Edge flash back there!)

Quick and sweaty just the way I like it. By working my legs and my abs I got a good calorie burn.  And now I get to bask in the after burn of an awesome workout.. And get some sleep.. Tomorrow is another day.

Sometimes you just have to turn off your brain.

In my head lives this weight loss bucket list.  Rarely do I share it with anyone, it's one of those personal things.  Maybe I don't share it because I am afraid I won't reach the goal or maybe it's because I may JUST change my mind. Yep that's it.. I do so love to change my mind.. =)    On that list is running a marathon.. A full on 26.something mile marathon.. I want to then put that sticker on the back window of my car and proudly display it to EVERYONE..   Today while speed walking around the track Jessica brought up that this weekend she looked into half marathons.. For the life of me I have no idea why it didn't click that if a full marathon is 26.2 miles that a half would be 13.1.. I said something like sure what is that 3 or 5 miles.. When she said 13.1 I swear my brain stopped processing all other thoughts and said. "huh, oh no you're not, you can't for xyz reasons..." And for a moment I was like hmm.. What excuse can I make to not do that..  It wasn't until later this evening that it dawned on me. The only reason I cannot do this is because my brain is telling me no and thus reminded me of the image above.
To be successful I need to control how my brain feels. If my brain keeps telling me I can't than I won't.. So what I instead told myself was "I got this, and I will be ok.." I have never been one to dream small, so why start now.. On ward half marathon..

My workout today, the circuit was done twice except for the BOSU Mountain Climbers.
15 lat pulls at 65lbs
15 step ups with high knee. each knee
30 BOSU MTN Climbers.
15 clean and press 10lbs
10-10 plank with tricep extension (Think plank position just shifting your weight so that you can reach your arm back towards the ceiling.  When Jessica showed me these I am sure my face was something like huh.  I have tried three arm planks before and always failed.. They weren't that big of an issue today.  I need to work on my form, but hey I was able to do it!)
15 star jumps. (Seriously, when you workout just leave a bunch of your dignity at the door.  You will look foolish and just plain crazy.  But you look this way only in your minds eye. To the rest of the world you are working it out!)
5 power walk laps

The rest of the week I am on my own when it comes to creating workouts.. Jessica did provide me with some extra items to help push my workouts to the next level..    But you will have to check back tomorrow to find out what goodies we have in store..

Captains lo.. scratch that Awesome fitness log day 1 =)

I want to first thank anyone who is taking the time out of their busy lives to read this blog. Thanks Bunches!!!

Special note on the pink background.. First I love pink and second it is breast cancer awareness month..  I cannot stress  just how important it is for both men and women to get screened.   Early detection is the key to survival. For more information  please visit  http://www.pinkribbon.org/

My story is probably a lot like some of you reading this blog.  I was the "chubby" kid through out school and then at some point I turned into the "fat" kid.  The "fat" kid grew up into the "fat" adult.  I was never happy about being the fat kid or the fat adult. You will read me type A LOT, "We can do this."  Because it is doable.
My journey started when I was three months away from my 35th birthday, I was well over 400lbs and miserable.  I work in a building that is huge and I would get tired walking from my office to the cafeteria..  If you believe in a higher power then lets just say that higher power finally yelled louder than the other noises in my head to tell me I have to change.   I made the decision to have a bariatric procedure I lost around 80 lbs which is far from the 200 + lbs that needed to come off.  I ended up  sick.. Two rounds of super antibiotics  before the nurse practitioner at my surgeons office deduced it was the procedure that was causing me problems.    OMG it's not working!!  The equipment from my surgery is still there. Going forward the only time you will ever hear me mention it is when I seriously work my abs. (The only thing I am able to eat after a serious ab workout is liquids).  I will never tell someone that any bariatric surgery is the answer. But I also will not sway you from seeking out one.  This is your journey.. Live it..
I worked out before I got sick, but it wasn't a passion like it is now.   I have worked  with Jessica on and off for about a year now.   I will admit that I do not always love what I am doing but I do love the results...  Where am I now? Some where around 170ish lbs lost, but I still have more to go.  Over the next 6 months follow me and let's see where this goes..


On Friday Oct 12th I met with Jessica and we did a pre test...  Here are the results,

2 minute pushup test: 37 (I wimped out and did them on my knees)
2 minute squat test: 34
2 minute body row test: 16 (seriously this is my LEAST fave thing to do.)
leg press test: 220lbs
chest press test: 110lbs (Bench)
1 mile on treadmill 2% incline.: 18.05 (I hurt my knee and it is still not back to 100% jogging and power walking just wasn't an option.)